i have a terrible cold and missed surgery today. I have ICU observation tomorrow at clinical so i wont have to do much so i should be okay. im starting to feel a little bit better now, jsut medicating myself. getting sleep.
this past weekend was awesome. I had a good second interview, really enjoyed the floor and hopefully ill hear back this week! im anxious to know!!! i really want the job now!
I spent another great weekend in ky, went to mark's gma's birthday party and then on sunday we went out on the lake and had a bon fire at 2 am...did a night walk as well.
its weird for me to be out in the country and enjoying myself. ive always been such a city girl, never thought id feel so at home out in the country, but i really do and i feel so sad when im away from there. I miss mark when im not with him, it sucks...long distance is terrible.
i wishi could jsut go down there every weekend, but i cant be that girl
on friday i am going to go home because Tony is home from air force training for 2 weeks before he heads for his station in alaska. im excited to see him !
other than that nothing else is really new. im just hoping to hear back about the job
the weeks are getting down to the wire and the HESI is 2 weeks away....im so terrified...i feel like this are in a whirlwind right now, im struggling to keep up ..bad time to get a cold...but im excited to say i bought my cap and gown...guess this graduation thing is real...wow.

wow. its been a while.
spirng break was amazing. I had a wonderful family oriented birthday, with a surprise party which was fabulous !! I have never tasted a better chocolate cake.
I went to my dads after that and saw my family there. which was fun. I miss my daddy and he is so awesome.
Then i had my interview at Christ Hosp in cinci. Which went well. Although, they informed me they are no longer hiring in the Geri unit, and instead asked me if i was interested in interviewing for psych....i said yes. I need a job so bad that ill do anything and at least this will get my foot in the door. Im still keeping options open and praying praying praying for NICU or the best option for me. I have a second interview this friday which sucks that i have to drive back but gives me an excuse to go back to Mark's this weekend =). After i left the hospital i thought my car sounded funny so i pulled over sort of across the street frm the hosp. in a apt. parking lot...totally ghetto, not the nicest part of town. And i had a flat tire. Looking totally preppy in my express pants and a sweater over a blouse with my headband and straightened hair....little white girl. I must say, after a little crying freak out missed with laughter to my ever so patient boyfriend, i handled it quite well. I spent my new birthday money on a tow truck and a new tire. fabulous.

i spent the rest of my break in kentucky. went to the old farm that mark's family used to live on. hiked threw the woods...so crazy. I seriously was in awe. Im amazed by the land and the beauty of it. it made me fall in love 200002080915 times more.

Im so amazed by my life, the way things are working out so flawlessly...the amount of happiness i have within me and the love i feel and have. im looking forward to the summer, and starting something new. its so exciting!!!!


today in clinical preceptor i held a sigmoid colon in my hands...it was pretty sweet....thats all the news i have on the clinical front!

I got to go watch american idol and see who gets the boot...carrie underwood is seriously amazing

that is all!!! ill write more lata!

i think i was up all night, im not really sure.
off to precept in the OR! sooo tired. but excited i think. Hopefully ill have good stories!


p.s. please excuse previous posting as a combination of things upsetting me and not one specific thing or person....thank you, and have a great day!




oh and....blessed be! ;)

The neighbor brought over a larger tv, they thought my little dorm room one wasnt big enough. Which it wasnt but I thought it did the job. Its nice to have a big tv....dont have to squint as much.

Ive been moody lately. I think restless. Ive been thinking about the future, and growing up, and overall annoyed with people who arent doing the same. Im just in a place where the future isnt so far off and i have to think about things in a more adult like fashion. Its not live for the moment, pleasure, or whimming it anymore. Im applying for jobs, graduating from school, assuming responsibility for things that i dont even understand.

I want things in my life. I have an idea of what i want. and i dont understand why dont agree. If you want me, you want my ideas as well they are the core of who i am. Im so angry and frusterated with this force that pushes me. Im so sick of questioning this. Im so pissed off. i just want to not care. why do we ever have to care? im calling this the 3 week curse. when you are away from someone you love for so long you forget the things that make it good and start to feel bad. ugh i just wish this bug would go away. i just need the weekend to hurry here,
i NEED a break from school.
i NEED to be with my family.

greer and i are still looking into europe, thinking of not doing the contiki tour but doing it on our own . she has family in london and knows someone currently living in barcelona, so it would only be paris and italy that wed be on our own to have to pay for hostels which run about 25-30 a night. it might be cheaper to do it this way.
kate is calling...........