Went and saw Eat Pray Love tonight and it took me back to when i first read it and determined to live my life according to that book. to travel the world and marvel. i be passionate about live and wake up in the morning with the zest and aura that surrounds me. to be in love with life itself and at peace.

i got sad for a while thinking about how i just go to work every night and sleep away my days and try to recooperate. what do i do of passion, what have i made of my life. i live in a small kentucky town . not rome.

im engaged to a man and getting married in the spring. im going to be a wife and stepmother and hopefully a mother someday, i want to go to grad school and be a np. i dont want to get wrapped up in a job and become a body that just goes through the motions and one day wakes up wondering where am i i am numb,

i told mark i was a little frusterated internally after this movie. "what do i do thats so awesome?" i asked him

he told me that made him sad tha ti had to wonder about my life. he told me i help people get better, i give love to him and i give love to mason and i am with him and he is my family and that is something huge.

that opened my eyes.

i may not travel the world, but i hope to, and i hope to do it wiht my family that i am justbeginning at 24.

i am a firm believer now that you can love your life and not have to leave it to learn how.

so tomorrow i am determined to wake up with passion again