you know things have changed when on a long car ride you find yourself listening to elmo's song and mister wiggles instead of your ipod shuffle. and instead of getting the latest carrie underwood song stuck in your head its Sesame street.

needless to say it was an amazing weekend back home to cleveland, and i had a redneck shower so my kitchen is pretty much stocked with things..no more resourcefullness of foil, although it would make a pretty neat book.


im blessed with an amazing family that gives and gives, and loves and loves. its never-ending. It was hard to realize how far i am from them, how much less ig et to see them, the people who molded me and formed me into the woman that i now am... played such a huge part in that and now so far away. i dont want it to feel like im far away and not around much, i want to be around and in there lives. mark and i were talking how we dont want mason to forget everyone he met, the only way to do that is to have frequent trips. i want my kids to be as close to my family as iw as when iwas growing up. thats so important to me, and i dont want distance to effect itl. i think if im determined it will happen.

anways i read in my moms blog about how her mother is becoming her grandmother, and she is turning into her mother. and i laughed because just last night i looked at my mom sitting in the rocking chair and i watched her mannerisms as she played with mason...the way she looked her hair up in a messy pony, a baggy shirt, sweatpants....and i though "thats me" every move she maked, the tone of her voice it was like looking in a mirror...i am becoming my mother. i think this is a natural progression of life....you get busy with work and kids and suddenly youre not the girl with new cute top, skinny jeans, boots, a fake bake tan, white teeth, going out to get some drinks...instead youre more comfortable in that baggy t-shirt and messy pony. because life is busy and you dont just take care of yourself anymore but a little life that looks to you for kisses when he gets a booboo and daddy just says "hes all right, be tough" (although mark rarely does that!)
and i dont think thats such a bad thing. im proud to be my mommy, and ill be proud to be nana, or grandma or aunt lucy....if its one thing my family has its powerful strong beautiful women.

i had tea with my mom, sat and talked, and it was like soul nourishment, to have that one person in this world that knows you frm the moment you were nothing but a centimeter in size. who formed you your whole life and knows how you think and the right thing to say and will never judge you because no matter what she loves you, she created you! i still can feel like her little girl and that makes me so sad because i still want to be that little girl, and i know in her heart i always will be.

anyways, im gettin my period in a few days so thats why im so emotional . im headed back to work wednesday so tomorrow is my lsat day of play on this unexpected vacation ! i think mark and i are going to hit up some of the bourbon trail and finish doing laundry and putting clothes away but well see because i have no intention of setting an alarm and being on any sort of a schedule.

but its nice to blog again and iw ill make more of an effort to do that. life isnt as boring as it seems when you sit down and thing about it...thers always a story somewhere that can be told!

something told me to check the mail as i came home from work today. maybe its because Im waiting on checks. inside my mailbox was a key with a note that said i have mail waiting for me in 17B....17B is a larger mailbox. i thought , well i guess my checks are here...but to my surprise it was not my checks! it was a little brown box from ohio! my aunt and uncle sent me a little present. mark and i were excited to find some kitched towels (mapine's (sp??)) they are so cute with pumpkins and ghosts! and some fall ones too! we dont have any so its nice to have these, might have to use then even after halloween!!! (thank you aunt lucy! ) i read the know she left me and it said she hasnt read anything lately which is a reminder to me that i need to blog which ive been thinking about needing to do a lot lately . things have been kind of crazy ....heres the update youve been waiting for!

orientation at work was soooo boring, just sat in a cold room everyday listening to people talk abotu stuff im sure they really dont care about...like safety control and poison control blablabla
then i started precpting. the first day i jsut shadowed this woman Dee ann just watched what she did, it was kind of a calm day, she only had 2 patients. then the next day and every time ive worked since i precepted with Somer and i absolutely love her! shes young and fun and such an incredible nurse i hope to grown and be as intelligent in nursing as she is. i have been learning a lot. like computer charting which idont know how ill ever get the hang of it but i guess i will. some days it gets so crazy because we can get admits frm the ER at anytime, or people from the floor or icu....so you have people coming and going . and we dont get a tech most of the time so we do our own primary care which kind of sucks because ithought my butt wiping days were over but at the same time it really gives you a chance to get to know yoru patient and be at there bedside more than just med tosses. im learnng a lot about medications..i feel like ive learned more these past few days than ever in school clinicals.

good news! I PASSED NCLEX!!! taking it was so weird. they do everything but ask you to strip before entering the exam. they took my pic and fingerprints three separate times. then you go in and people are around you but not taking the same exam, some are taking gre or other grad school exams ...everyone is sitting against the wall and every cubicle has a camera peering over you! its creepy. but i took it and was done in 110 questions which was about an hour for me. all my friends were done after 75 so once it hit queston 76 i started to panic a bit but i just calmed down, read the questions and it paid off! i found out 2 days later that i passed after paying 7.00 to the website that offers the exam...and then my number showed up on the ohio BON website! Getting things to transfer to ky has been hard though because in ky ou need 120 hours of training to be a RN so i have what is called a provisional license and thehours start from the day they issued it so basically im starting fresh even though ive been working for a few weeks....but its okay its more training before im on my own...only downside is i get a paycut until then.

other than that mark and i moved into our apt! its so cute! I love it! we need a lot of things but that will come in time. we both jsut recovered from the swine flu and had to miss a few days of work but were much better now. swine flu is nothing to be messed with, definitely the sickest i have felt. and i know ill be sick a lot because as a new grad i have a immature immune system and will get everything, sure the mono doesnt help!

well ill blog more with some cute patients stories! now i have to go to bed
dad and peggy adn grandparents and aunt are in hopkinsville and im off to see them in the AM! yay!!

love you aunt lucy and uncle keith!