you know things have changed when on a long car ride you find yourself listening to elmo's song and mister wiggles instead of your ipod shuffle. and instead of getting the latest carrie underwood song stuck in your head its Sesame street.

needless to say it was an amazing weekend back home to cleveland, and i had a redneck shower so my kitchen is pretty much stocked with things..no more resourcefullness of foil, although it would make a pretty neat book.


im blessed with an amazing family that gives and gives, and loves and loves. its never-ending. It was hard to realize how far i am from them, how much less ig et to see them, the people who molded me and formed me into the woman that i now am... played such a huge part in that and now so far away. i dont want it to feel like im far away and not around much, i want to be around and in there lives. mark and i were talking how we dont want mason to forget everyone he met, the only way to do that is to have frequent trips. i want my kids to be as close to my family as iw as when iwas growing up. thats so important to me, and i dont want distance to effect itl. i think if im determined it will happen.

anways i read in my moms blog about how her mother is becoming her grandmother, and she is turning into her mother. and i laughed because just last night i looked at my mom sitting in the rocking chair and i watched her mannerisms as she played with mason...the way she looked her hair up in a messy pony, a baggy shirt, sweatpants....and i though "thats me" every move she maked, the tone of her voice it was like looking in a mirror...i am becoming my mother. i think this is a natural progression of life....you get busy with work and kids and suddenly youre not the girl with new cute top, skinny jeans, boots, a fake bake tan, white teeth, going out to get some drinks...instead youre more comfortable in that baggy t-shirt and messy pony. because life is busy and you dont just take care of yourself anymore but a little life that looks to you for kisses when he gets a booboo and daddy just says "hes all right, be tough" (although mark rarely does that!)
and i dont think thats such a bad thing. im proud to be my mommy, and ill be proud to be nana, or grandma or aunt lucy....if its one thing my family has its powerful strong beautiful women.

i had tea with my mom, sat and talked, and it was like soul nourishment, to have that one person in this world that knows you frm the moment you were nothing but a centimeter in size. who formed you your whole life and knows how you think and the right thing to say and will never judge you because no matter what she loves you, she created you! i still can feel like her little girl and that makes me so sad because i still want to be that little girl, and i know in her heart i always will be.

anyways, im gettin my period in a few days so thats why im so emotional . im headed back to work wednesday so tomorrow is my lsat day of play on this unexpected vacation ! i think mark and i are going to hit up some of the bourbon trail and finish doing laundry and putting clothes away but well see because i have no intention of setting an alarm and being on any sort of a schedule.

but its nice to blog again and iw ill make more of an effort to do that. life isnt as boring as it seems when you sit down and thing about it...thers always a story somewhere that can be told!